My Ramblings

I feel cracks inside me, I don’t know how does that happen. It is a wonder to any amoebic, amorphous globular mass who only knew that it was designed to float. He made me feel human-ish. So, now, if anyone asks I refer to myself as humanoid, a human-in-the-making. I can feel. I breathe. Like the fishies in the ocean, I breathe in the air but without gills. Or maybe I do have them but they certainly have not differentiated into organs as is the case with the fish, the salamanders in the oceans or even humans on land. I am still unsure of my anatomy. It is difficult to comprehend. I do not have mind evolved enough. From the human interactions I've had, I have learnt that the humans are the most evolved creatures with the most evolved brains. And, I am limited when it comes to them. I try to emulate but a difference of capability, species-wise, is certainly difficult to overcome. I have learnt that there are stages of evolution for abiotic and biotic things in the world and how there ...

Today is the day I declare Bankruptcy of love. When I decided to create, Something called love. Tried to evoke it Which is truly spontaneous. Like those geysers And those hot springs. When I decided to sow Jungle seed and expected A garden to turn up around me. And why not when I know I'm dead inside. No matter how much I push It won't lift a leaf in the air. Such is the power of love. I feel the charcoal and tar Like on the roads Smoldering inside me, Something which is burning With fumes around. Layers upon layers, So when one burns, I don't miss the pains. Always refreshed, And each layer like A sheet of paper Calcines. Where I am made of So many things, And none stick together. I feel the discrete insides Of me stitched together. But more like the pieces Of a jigsaw puzzle Shaped like my insides. So today I give it up In the name of love, For I owe it that much. Finally, today is the day I declare my bankruptcy. _______________________________