My Ramblings

I feel cracks inside me, I don’t know how does that happen. It is a wonder to any amoebic, amorphous globular mass who only knew that it was designed to float. He made me feel human-ish. So, now, if anyone asks I refer to myself as humanoid, a human-in-the-making. I can feel. I breathe. Like the fishies in the ocean, I breathe in the air but without gills. Or maybe I do have them but they certainly have not differentiated into organs as is the case with the fish, the salamanders in the oceans or even humans on land. I am still unsure of my anatomy. It is difficult to comprehend. I do not have mind evolved enough. From the human interactions I've had, I have learnt that the humans are the most evolved creatures with the most evolved brains. And, I am limited when it comes to them. I try to emulate but a difference of capability, species-wise, is certainly difficult to overcome. I have learnt that there are stages of evolution for abiotic and biotic things in the world and how there ...

He would worry about me. He had a line of worry painted across his forehead, quite visible if anyone paid even the littlest attention to him. I think the insane words which came out of the mouth of the fanatic in love had unsettled him. Every time we used to have a conversation, either he or I, one of us had always felt uncertain of how to broach this part of the discussion. I was in love too much. We did know that any drivel or any balderdash chitchat would grow awkward if we tried to tiptoe past this topic. "He knows me, he senses me. He feels me, you know. Not my skin, something that is inside me, which I can't touch. He touches that. Maybe that's what they call soul", I was flailing in delirium probably. Pup-eyed, he kept staring at me. I felt the urge inside to convince him that I was not in any haze. I was not intoxicated by the longest shot, that I hadn't had a sip of alcohol in the last three years. But the overwhelm of my delirium might have confused him....

  You bring me joy, The kind unfelt until now. You bring me peace and quiet, The kind unexperienced until now. You take my mind away I waggle my head with abandon now. You take my worries away For why would I see anything but love now. You know me, you feel me, You touch me, you sense me. You make me feel worthy, You see my body and my soul. You slough the debauchery off me, You rid me of my paranoia. You make me feel loved, You make me feel diseased no more. You make me try frenzy with a taste, You anchor me till I graze. You kiss my forehead, You make me real. You introduce me to me, For you protect me from experience.   My knight, my warrior. My lover of the night. I am fragrant since You have rubbed yourself on me. You stave off the darks near me, You lead me into the lights. You kill my demons from afar, You keep me warm at night. I have my share of love now The one tailor-made for me. -------------------------...