My Ramblings

I have to smile yet again For I am back to the old days. Once again at the same crossroads Where I prayed never to come to. Where days became years And I became queer. Where words were stuck Wrapped within my tongue But you were in rush to hear So built your monologue. It's the immensity of love I have That will keep me afloat I hope. On a dead sea with nectons. For if I drown why would I Ever want to get back to the surface. I cannot mourn you yet, I have no energy left. I only hope kinder words Await me in my future. It's not my vanity I am so easily misheard. The naked, raw body wishes It were the shadow that follows. For it doesn't worry And most importantly feel. So the kindness is only the food That fills the dying ghost. It aches to smile But nothing like listening to The whimper of a bruised heart. So what do I do I smile. 

All that we want  Is here with us. Bring out your hands  Let the air hit you fresh.  But sometimes alas The winds don't blow.  Like an ephemera  We screech ourselves slow.  A day of being one  A day of truth  A day to show everything That's inside you. Truth is tough to hide The nooks are too full. Scare of shame or load of  Expectations tuning into a lull. A risky business to  Gauge the two sides. But in moment and why not It sounds all right.  All that we want  Is where, not with me. Where's the air When I want to breathe!  _______________________________________